Taedium Vitae 

Is it possible to suffer in bliss?

To be rosy in health,
To have not a single burden weighing heavy on your shoulders,
But still feel as though your chest is constrained in thorns?
To still dread waking in the morn?
To fill your empty mind with worry after worry,
Just to keep it occupied?
To be upset without cause,
Unable to confide in the loving embrace of reason?

To resolve to watching the suffering of a life you never know?
A mere piece of fiction you must grit your teeth to watch?
To analyse the every aspect of their misery,
With dare I say glee,
To better understand how they think,
How they function?
To be depraved enough to even think,
To watch but to never empathise?
Perhaps it is the joyous life one has lived so far that gives one entertainment watching a tragedy?
To enjoy pathos feeling like a sinner,
A vile criminal?

– Maya Desdemona

The Real Monsters Remain

Fret not, little child,
The monsters under your bed are long gone,
The next monsters you must fear
Lurk within the minds of men.

It enslaves their heart,
And lives off their soul,
Construing their figures beyond recognition.
Turning them into a shell of their former person.

Fret not, little child,
Such monsters are a part of life,
They live within us all and live all too well,
For why else would poets of old admire your innocence,
Your childlike wonder, lost to the seas of time?

– Maya Desdemona

The Legacy of Man 

For what can Man do, 
Except follow its predecessors today?
Regardless of the path,
It all ends with the grave.

Till the heart ceases to beat
And the hand ceases to move,
Till the corpse has no heat
And the mind achieves no feat.

Yet even beyond the grave
All men are remembered in some way
And it is through their ideas,
Legendary and brave.

We know not their life,
We know not their strife,
At times, we know not even their name.
But we know what they did.

A legacy remains.

It will only follow,
Through sickness and health,
Through poverty and death
In hopes that it can even live to compare
To the might of those who left it behind.

– Maya Desdemona

Omnipresent Burdens

In every breath I take,
I only fill my emptiness
With air
For a brief while.

A longer release from this nameless burden that sits over me,
Would really be appreciated, you see?

I cannot breathe in for too long,
The weight returns with a spiking pain,
As painful as a somber memory...

Without name and cause,
This burden rests above my chest,
Yet from there it will not budge,
And I must be an Atlas, holding up the sky.

But wherefore does this weary weight come from,
It weighs heavy on the worn soul,
And when one knows not its cause,
It resembles a mystery to unfold.

My life is good and my worries are few,
Yet this immaterial intangible weight
Still constantly rests on my soul.

Are there others in this world
With so queer a tale to tell?
So I ask, dear readers,
So you feel such impending dread?

– Maya Desdemona

Nocturne


Sweet Nocturne,
She needs not the light of day,
Nor the labours that do not pay,
For with her she has numerous nebulae,
That keep her at bay.

She is oft mistaken with coldness and death,
But in her darkness one finds a hearth,
A truly limitless rebirth,
Yet one that blazes with solace.

It needs no light
And does not burn too bright,
So as to hurt your eyes
And feed you with all-encompassing lies.

For sweet Nocturne is Wicked
Man’s veil,
Though the many layers of her beauty
Enclose many in pain,
Those lost souls always searching for their way
Will always find themselves in that dark haze.

– Maya Desdemona, Arsh.